Brother Matt Gee and how he brought me back to the Spiritual Path forever....[Written Originally in September, 2018 when he passed on]

I am re-sharing a blog post that I wrote about my dear friend Matt Gee about 3 years ago now as soon as he had passed on in September, 2018.  His passing is what brought me back to the Lotus Feet of my Spiritual Guide after years of off and on meditation.  It's a long read but will show what brought me back before I share more about my spiritual journey of the last 3 years of the constant meditative practice that has allowed me expand my consciousness and continuing to do so.  As my Guide says, the spiritual journey is a journey Towards Infinity and there is always more to be found as you keep going deeper into the inner dimensions that opens up to you....

More to come after this post..

 This is my attempt after a very long time to write a blog post. I wanted to take this time to document my last meeting with my brother/friend Matt Gee who passed away last week.

Please note that it might seem that I am rambling for a while before getting to talk about Matt — but, please note that I will be bringing the whole story together before this blog post ends (I promise!)

This blog post involves a few other folks in addition to Matt and me. This includes one of my former co-workers, my Dad (yes, he is in it too even if he has passed on a few years ago).

Here it goes…(Please provide honest feedback on this blog post). I am looking to start creative writing and this blog post is the first of many attempts at this.

The last week from 09/16/18 to 09/22/2018 was a deeply Spiritual one for me. I got so many signs to restart meditation — the most important sign was my brother Matt Gee’s passing. It made me realize once again that “Life is too Short”. We need to make use of what little “TIME” we have on “Mother Earth” wisely. The most valuable resource on Earth is TIME. This is the best chance to dedicate myself to the spiritual way once again.

I did feel during the week that I have been in touch with “Divinity” even if I have not meditated in a long time.

In relation to the signs mentioned above this week — here is one of the best example in relation to Matt Gee:

My friend Shannon Harper mentioned during the week via LinkedIn that she will pray peace and rest over me and that it’s difficult to be an “empath” in light of all my posts about Matt on Facebook/LinkedIn. I never knew what this word meant. I looked it up and found that it refers to someone who has a heightened sense of awareness and empathy towards others and their welfare.

Once I knew what that word meant, I realized that I am able to connect the dots on the reason behind recent events sorrounding Matt’s death.

My empathy towards him led me to read his message on August 14th about leaving Houston for good and made me reach out to him right away to meet him one last time before he hit the open road.

I never knew then that the meeting with him would be our very last one.

It was such a great circumstance that I met him on the second anniversary of my Dad’s death — 08/26/2018. We had picked that date randomly from a set of dates that he said would work for him.

The actual dinner meet with Matt was a deeply spiritual one for the both of us.

We met at the “The World of Beer” at Cinco Ranch, Katy. The original plan was to get a couple of beers and then hit the road to go to an Indian restaurant for dinner.

Matt came a few minutes late and I got a table and waited for him by the entrance to the restaurant.

Once he came and settled in, we had a long conversation about the circumstances surrounding his recent job loss from ExxonMobil. I don’t want to mention those details here since it’s his personal information.

We then discussed his current health situation and his plans for hitting the road soon to visit a few other states and cities to look for jobs out there. I asked him about the difficulty of being on the open road for long stretches of time. He replied saying that long bike rides were his passion and he loved visiting new places and the adventures that came with it.

It was then time to order food. We ordered a couple of beers. Matt got an Oktoberfest brew saying that he wanted to get into the fall mood :-) It’s ironic that he would never live to see October this year….I went ahead and ordered the same beer.

There was a lot of discussion about both of our Dads. He said how he missed his Dad and we talked about the time that he had to rush to be with his Dad when he passed away a few years ago on Father’s Day. I mentioned about the passing of my Dad and that today was the date of his passing. Matt became emotional when I mentioned that and we toasted to both of our Dad’s in heaven and it felt very good to do that.

He mentioned that he was hungry and wanted to order food. We had to scrap our original plans of going somewhere else and I am very happy that we did that in hindsight….

He picked a chips and dip appetizer initially, but, then changed his mind suddenly and asked for the “Bavarian Pretzel with Beer Cheese” instead…

This choice for the appetizer made me sit up and take notice because my Dad loved to eat pretzel and mustard from the street vendors at Philadelphia when he used to work there at both Temple and Drexel Universities as a post doctoral fellow back in the 1970s.

I mentioned the significance of this to Matt and he was very happy to hear it. I told him that I was overjoyed that he had ordered the very same food that my father used to love and it was even more coincidental that this was happening on his 2nd anniversary of his passing.

I could feel my Dad’s presence and felt that he had made Matt order his favorite food for us to share.

We then continued discussing about our Dads and it was such a memorable conversation. I felt so happy to have met him on my Dad’s anniversary date.

I felt very sad about his job status. I hoped that he would be able to get a job soon in a different city in SharePoint technology. He is one of the foremost experts in the SharePoint field that I knew and I thought that moving anywhere else should help him land a job soon. I wished him all the success for that.

I have to mention here that I did feel a sense of melancholy during our meeting. At that time I tried to explain it away in my mind thinking that it was due to the date we met and his current job circumstance. I realize now that I felt that way due to a sense of sadness that I couldn’t explain. It somehow made me feel sad about the whole situation.

He then mentioned about his current health challenges — I won’t be able to share those details here since it’s his personal information.

He did mention this statement right before we were going to leave the restaurant after dinner: “I have accepted the path God has set out for me and will take it where it leads me”. I felt very happy hearing that from him, not knowing that God’s path/plan was take Matt back to be with Him in just a few short weeks after that.

Matt also mentioned to me that he still had the diary with the quotes from Bible that I had got for him back in September 2014. He said that he hadn’t written a single word in it and looks to it for daily inspiration by reading a quote from it. I was very happy hearing that he was still keeping that dairy safe. It is one of the best spiritual connections for me with Him now since he has passed on and I will cherish that memory of him at all times.

I would like to end this post by saying that Brother Matt Gee is so close to my heart and will always continue to live on in my Heart and Mind until it’s time for me to leave “Mother Earth”.

Godspeed Dear Brother Matt!

Be well in God’s kingdom…until we meet again…

Your Baby brother who shares his birthday with you!

Anand Balasubramanian.